About life..
I wrote this a couple of years ago and when I read it I thought 'Oh, sh*t, I was going maaad' So, I decided to post it here just to know what do you think about this 
About Life.
I don't know really where to start from. I guess I will from my earliest memories.
When I was a kid my life was about just one thing: Football. I used to play it everyday. And when your life is as simple as that, you're happy.
Then, when I started primary school, I was 5 years old. My life changed a little bit. Now, it wasn't just about football but football and a slow learning-process which I don't know when will it finish. Maybe never.
As I was growing up, and my life was everyday heavier, I started to understand why I had become a 'sad' person. Ok, maybe not sad, but 'worried'. Too worried.
Even though I had wonderful marks at school, an awesome relationship with my family and friends, even though I had a girlfriend, I wasn't feeling happy.
I thought that something should have been done. If my life was excellent when I was younger, why couldn't it be now?
What did I have when I was younger?
What did I have when I was happy?
And the answer came to me itself:
NOTHING!
I had nothing!
I spent a lot of time wondering 'why' and chasing 'dreams' that could never be done!
I wanted to be professional footballer, I wanted to be president, I wanted to be, I wanted to be, I wanted to be! But I never realised in the present. I never realised 'what I am'. I spent my whole life 'pretending' to be something or someone that I'm not.
So, I took my choice. I started to be a kind of rebel with myself. I left my facial hair grow I didn't cut my hair. I used to sleep til 17.00, just to eat something and have a beer. I dumped my girlfriend. And I realised that during that time, I was the happiest man in the whole world!
And I discovered that life was just about that: Having nothing, being nobody, saying nothing and living the present
Hell.. I was crazy!
About Life.
I don't know really where to start from. I guess I will from my earliest memories.
When I was a kid my life was about just one thing: Football. I used to play it everyday. And when your life is as simple as that, you're happy.
Then, when I started primary school, I was 5 years old. My life changed a little bit. Now, it wasn't just about football but football and a slow learning-process which I don't know when will it finish. Maybe never.
As I was growing up, and my life was everyday heavier, I started to understand why I had become a 'sad' person. Ok, maybe not sad, but 'worried'. Too worried.
Even though I had wonderful marks at school, an awesome relationship with my family and friends, even though I had a girlfriend, I wasn't feeling happy.
I thought that something should have been done. If my life was excellent when I was younger, why couldn't it be now?
What did I have when I was younger?
What did I have when I was happy?
And the answer came to me itself:
NOTHING!
I had nothing!
I spent a lot of time wondering 'why' and chasing 'dreams' that could never be done!
I wanted to be professional footballer, I wanted to be president, I wanted to be, I wanted to be, I wanted to be! But I never realised in the present. I never realised 'what I am'. I spent my whole life 'pretending' to be something or someone that I'm not.
So, I took my choice. I started to be a kind of rebel with myself. I left my facial hair grow I didn't cut my hair. I used to sleep til 17.00, just to eat something and have a beer. I dumped my girlfriend. And I realised that during that time, I was the happiest man in the whole world!
And I discovered that life was just about that: Having nothing, being nobody, saying nothing and living the present
Hell.. I was crazy!
Total Comments 4
Comments
-
Dont be worried Dude BEERS AND METAL
Posted 1st-August-2008 at 08:35 AM by Vesania
-
Hell yes! Life is as simple as that
Posted 1st-August-2008 at 09:19 PM by Blazco_
-
I have discovered that a person is often only happy when they have a goal, something they donīt have yet and want to have or want to achieve.
Then you donīt kind of stay and think what life really is about. Because nobody really knows.
I think you just had everything: friends, family, gf and good grades. And football.
Anyway, this was only one alternative. Of course you can also just be thinking too much....or something.
Anyway, I hope you feel happy now.Posted 25th-August-2008 at 02:34 PM by Taru
-
Really interesting your comment, makes me remember that happiness is in the seeking for it, it's a kind of abstract thing, you can't touch it, you only feel it, and when you get it, you get empty because you don't have anything else to look for.
If you thing too much, you may get depressed, thoughts must be out of your head :P
Thanks for reading, and thanks for the comment!Posted 25th-August-2008 at 09:49 PM by Blazco_
admin